? cash im confident in my ability to do well in college.

? Okay boys and girls, I have been very busy but i'm back. This time i've got to say that im getting a student loan. But it's cool cuz i'll be rolling in m

? oney for a while. Soon ill have good clothes and tripp pants, maybe even a tattoo or piercing. But im open to ideas and with the thought of an influx of

Long Days?

Hmmm intresting day not only did I have classes, helped babysit, hung out at my dorm, went shopping, restarted barbara's car, played heroscdape with honors students, then drank awesome coffe while messing with audio surf, and found time to do my blog. But for some reason these activities were'nt the funnest thing I've ever done but I have'nt done this many things at this fun level before..... and the day seemed much longer than a normal day , almost twice as long. Now being a freshmen in college I didnt hangout much and actually do stuff allday. I always thought that it couldnt be that much more fun than just sitting with your friends doin the norm. Now I regret my decision to act like a total shut out and not being myself in highschool. Now I'm a louder more obnoxious and free person and I can say that I enjoy myself now just by being myself. I look back at some women in my life that I had'nt thought about in a long time and some friendships that never blossomed because of my shy and secluded delusion that being ultra polite and quiet will help me. But i digress that even though my new found self exploration sounds good , alot of people think im rude and weird. That and now that I'm me when i get depressed i dont have the excuse of that its because I'm not being myself. I know that it should'nt be that worried but some things are slipping as I pull at the strings and some things aren't there when i look for them. But this puppet master has more than lint and ace's under his sleeve. ;)